Stop..

People who are the closest to you have the most capacity to hurt you. This is but obvious and highly scary. So when you are in such a situation when you do get hurt and get hurt repetitively, what do you do? Do nothing and wait for it to go away? Move the person a bit farther away from you so you stop getting hurt so often? The second option sounds more appealing at times since you’re sick of feeling this way, but then again you don’t want those consequences… even though you get the feeling that the person might be taking you for granted. What do you do then? Again wait for it to go away and just ignore it? Show the person how wrong they are by making them realise you might not always be there? Again the second option would sound tempting if it weren’t so damn hard to do and you realise that the other person might be more important to you than you are to them… And you wish it could go back to how it was… Carefree (fine, more carefree than the present), less touchy, with less expectations… wish it would stop feeling vulnerable and stop wanting to lash out, only to realise that you can’t bring yourself to in the first place…